You want to know what my problem is?

I care too much.

It was one of those days; you know the ones I'm talking about: the days where any little thing could push you off the edge and you could burst into tears at any given moment. Worst part about those days isn't the fact that you know them, it's the fact that you never make it though them. There is always one small thing that sets you off. You could lock your keys in your car, forget your lunch at home, or get a bad grade on a test. It's not the fact that those things happen, it's just the little push that makes you fall off into the cliff and break. When people see you cry, they think you are the craziest person, but they don't know all of the other burdens that you hide. You are usually strong and happy, but these problems accumulate and they just become too much to bear. And you really want to talk to anyone, because you don't want to tell them all that is bothering you, cause that will only make you weaker.

You say you still love me, cause you can't forget two and a half years.

You say you don't want a girl friend, cause she'd tie you down.

You say you want me to move on, cause you don't want to tie me down.

You say you don't know what you want, does that mean you don't want me either?

Dear You,

Hello, how are you? I'm just writing this to get a few things off of my chest. Don't worry, I won't be long. I just want you to know that you put these strange ideas in my head that I actually mean something to you. But your signals are weak, the strength is dwindling (or at least in my heart). I don't know if this is a good idea, but I want to give you a choice. I want to believe that you still love me. We've been through everything together, standing there side by side. It's in the way you look into my eyes; and you tell me all of these wonderful things that I really want to believe in. I know you have feelings for me, my heart tells me so. I really, really hope that my heart isn't deceiving me. But if it is, leave now. I don't want anymore games. My heart has been thrown around on the ground and torn down the middle. If you are going to risk destroying it completely, then I don't want anything to do with you, because there are so many other people out there willing to patch it up, so you don't have to. So I'm giving you a choice, not an ultimatum. I want your heart to choose whether or not it loves me. We don't have to date, you can date someone else, I really don't care. I just want to know that I have your heart. If you've given your heart to someone else, that's fine, I just won't bother with you anymore. The choice is yours.

Sincerely,

Hope Less

"Because for me, its always been you, always. I’ve tried to fight it; I’ve tried to deny it, but I can’t. You’re undeniable."

--The OC

WTF.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit or armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." -Neil Gaiman

"Be aware that what you chase may not be worth catching.

If you cheat for it, you will come to resent it.

If you steal it, it will haunt you.

What you work hard for may become the sweetest thing in life."

Feel free to pretend

You aren't fooling anyone

I have the last laugh

Wowowowow; interesting day. First off, I actually accomplished stuff for school, and if that doesn't make this day interesting, then I really don't know what does. (Oh yeah, what I'm about to tell you...) So after I was being proactive towards my school work, I was off to have some fun at a local festival, but there was a catch: I had preform in a parade first. On the way there my mom and I got into an accident. Nothing major, no one was injured. Some idiot lady rear ended us. I got to the parade on time, so everything was fine. Festival was alright, typical games, rides and food. I saw this girl who hates me cause I'm the ex of the guy she's interested in. She thinks that she is fooling me, psh, yeah, whatever. She also laughed at me during the parade, but you know what, I really don't care, cause I'm not the fat ass sitting on my couch all day, I actually have a life and a personality. I win. (Sorry about the angst.) But anyways. So my friend mentioned that my grandma died one year ago from today. I was shocked, I didn't even think of that, does that make a me a terrible person? I still think about her all the time. I miss you grandma.

I am just obsessed with these pictures.

Keep you emotions

Locked up inside your steel heart

Maybe you'll have fun

Whenever I tell him how I feel, I always end up making things awkward and end up feeling hopeless and broken. But when I suck it up and keep everything in, the conversations flows and we smile and laugh. He never tells me how he feels. I know we aren't dating, but I can tell that he still loves me. I think that he is just scared to admit that I was everything to him. That's me being optimistic, it's weird, I know.

I absolutely adore this orange flower!

Summer, please slow down

The days are not long enough

Won't you stay with me?

Summer came and went. I didn't do any of the things that I have wanted to do.

Beautiful sunflower that I had planted back in June with my dad.

Emily Pavilonis i hobe julie perri and everything that comea with hr. hahah that's whaty she saiddddd.

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Heather Reichl at 12:41am July 8

der der der. my names emily and i think its cool to drink without heather and sam. bitches!

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Emily Pavilonis at 9:16am July 8

You didn't even get to bed like I told you to. tsk tsk

Kimberly Pavilonis at 9:17am July 8

I was going to... but Neopets distracted me. Oops.

I am not going to let you play me like you've played so many girls before. I'm not like them; I'm not dumb. I refuse to used by someone like you. You don't want me? Wow, you're stupid. Have fun with that slut. I'm everything she's not. I can give you everything she can't. Too bad you aren't with me, cause then you might actually have a chance of getting some of what I have to offer. You lost your chance. I'm moving on.

She's got a smile on her face

And a fuck you attitude

Because from this day on,

She's living life for herself.

"Life is about trusting out feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the past"

Probable homecoming dress:

I think I look like a mermaid. :]

I think I'm falling

But babe, it'll be okay

Because I'm fine now.

So last year in August, I talked about a guy who I used to see (not dating, but just randomly see places). Well, we've been talking again. We hung out yesterday, and it was amazing. I really like him. We are so much a like, which is a good thing. He is just so amazing. Bwahh! I'm scared like hell, though. I've never felt like this about a guy before. He is just so amazing. <3333

These flowers were given to my mother from my dad on Mother's Day.