So Much For My Happy Ending.

Yea, I know it is a little early in my life to be making any huge decisions, but I'm pretty sure that this will save me a lot of pain down the road, so I guess that it is okay.

I've given up on trying to have a happy ending. Hell, I didn't really have a very happy beginning for that matter. There are two types of people in the world: those who are happy, and those who aren't. I think I was born to be unhappy; honestly, I'm okay with that, and I won't deny it. Don't get me wrong, I am happy sometimes, but something will always be missing. It is like a black hole in the middle of my chest that is constant.

All together, I've slowly began to take away other emotions as well. I don't cry anymore. Instead of crying out my frustration, I just exercise and it eventually goes away. I'm done getting emotionally involved in relationships. Every relationship that I had I screwed up so I'm going to just not try them anymore. It is really what is best for me, because in the end, there will be no disappointment. I won't expect anything from anyone and when I don't get it, I won't feel bad.

Happy endings are simply made up. They were meant to be in books and movies. Almost every happy ending that I saw/read was classified as fiction, so it's better if we keep it that way.