This fall I am doing cross country, soccer, and band. I skipped a week of preseason of soccer for cross country camp. This week I went back to soccer camp. Yes, it was awkward. But you know what? I am there to play my game. I don't have to be best friends with all of them. I just have to do what I do, and then leave. As cold hearted as that sounds, it is completely true. What makes everything so awkward is that my 'ex bestfriend' is on the team and randomly stops talking to me. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if she actually told me why, but I guess that would be asking too much.
As we get older, things change, people change. One number that has gotten smaller and smaller over the years is the people whom I trust. I am actually okay with that because it means that I am getting smarter with my decisions on how to determine who is important and who isn't.
Another thing that I think I am getting accustomed to is letting people go. I've been hurt a lot. The best thing I did to get rid of the pain was to learn to let go. Just walk away knowing that you are a better person and keep your head high. I only have two more years of high school left, and chances are that I won't see these people ever again.
We meet a lot of people in our lifetime. The are two types of people in our lives: those who change us, and those who don't. The ones who change us are the most important. You may not know the change at first, but as time progresses, you will realize what that person meant to you. The ones who hurt you and let you down will probably mean the most to you because you will learn the most from them. You know your 'bff&e&e's' who gossip at lunch? Yeah, them. Chances are they talk about you, too. Don't worry, they don't mean anything to you. They aren't your real friends.
The hardest thing to do in life is find what you need. (Of course, everyone has different needs so don't try copying off of your neighbor for this one.) Nevertheless, we all decide what we want in our lives by choosing. All of our choices describe who we are, what we value, and most importantly our future. Unfortunately, all of our choices have an effect and we can't go back and erase them or do them over again.
Life isn't really about finding yourself, it's about finding what you, personally, need in order to be happy.
What everyone needs:
- Friends who need them
- Learn how to let go.
- Know how to judge character.
- To accept yourself for who you really are.
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