"I fell down seven times; I got up eight."

I really liked that quote. It is so unequivocal yet so inspirational.

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My head is held high.

I laugh as I walk away.

I don't need you now.

That's what I keep telling myself. I think it's working. I've decided that I am going to look killer. Try and 'make myself over.' Ahahaha, I'll tell you how that goes.

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I hate this feeling

Deep inside of my body

That wants to hold on.

I'm trying so hard to let you go. Please, just let me.

Sorry about the terrible quality of this picture. I felt bad that I didn't post a picture in awhile and I was feeling extremely lazy and didn't feel like getting out my camera. Hopefully tomorrow will come with more inspiration and a better attitude.

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These damn emotions

Are driving me up a wall.

I am so confused.

I am happy, yet sad. Nervous, yet excited. Lonely, yet comforted. I am tired yet restless.

I wish I could have saved this picture for a better day. Today is just so strange.

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The scene is at pause.

My life is at a stand still.

I want excitement.

Everything is so boring. I am just going though the motions of the day, not one thing has changed in my routine in the last three days. Bor-ing!

This isn't my typical style of photography. I just liked the colors.

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I want to curl up

Fall sound asleep in my bed

And never wake up.

The idea of sleeping in my bed all day doing nothing has a very strange appeal to me. There has been so much drama going on. I just want to get away from it all.

I want to go somewhere far, far away from where I am now.

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I just want someone.

To cuddle with on the couch

And share happiness.

I've been feeling so lonely lately. As pathetic as this is, I think that someone to love would make my life so much better right now. I want someone to laugh with and randomly drive around town with. I want someone to hold hands with at the movies or cuddle with on the couch. Problem: all the guys at my school are assholes. :] Oh, and how about at my friend's party on Saturday, I read a few of her sext messages on her phone. Today, my other friend tells me that the same girl accidently left her phone at home. Her mom looked though her phone saw the sext messages. Her, her boyfriend, mom and dad are going to have a talk. Lol! (Okay, this isn't a very close friend of mine. She is actually a self absorbed bitch.)

Time is the most difficult thing to deal with. Some days it doesn't go fast enough, other days it goes too fast.

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Crazy and wild

Oh, the adventures of life!

Can I stay onboard?

Today was a pretty fantastic Monday. Don't worry, you probably won't ever hear me say that again. I didn't get assigned any homework for the second day in a row, and I wasn't tired at all. I also went to the dermatologist! (Yay!) He was very energetic and fast-paced. He talked a mile a minute and was very straight forward. He got rid of the five (yes, five.) warts on my finger! He literally burned them off. It hurt a little bit, but everything happened so quickly my brain didn't have to time to register what was actually going on. The I got some shampoo and medication for this yeast thing I have. I was really surprised that it wasn't acne. My dad and I went to McDonald's afterwards, and everyone there seemed pretty hyped up, too. Today was great Monday.

This is my guitar. I always wanted to play, but I never really have the time.

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit or armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

-Neil Gaiman

Wow. Best quote about love.

It's pretty basic, but I really like the colors together.

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I don't feel better.

I just feel really lonely

In a crowded room.

It is really weird how you feel lonely in a crowded room. That was basically the story of my Valentine's Day. I had a twelve hour track meet, then I went to my friend's party. I was probably awake at home for a total of forty-five minutes yesterday, hence, I couldn't do a daily haiku, which I apologize for. The track meet was extremely boring. I played about fifty-two games of gin,  finished a book that I was reading, and carried on awkward conversations with my ex. Then I rushed to get ready to go to my friend's party. This guy who has a major crush on me gave me roses. It was very sweet of him, and I really did appreciated it, but I just don't like him.

These were the flowers that he gave me. I'm sorry, I just want to be friends.

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It's one of those days.

I just want to run and hide.

I hate this feeling.

Blehh. I feel so terrible today. Just all around, everything, from head to toe, hideous. I just think people are being nice when they say I look pretty. I'm just not happy with myself.

Cute, lil' gold finch.

"You can dip a cockroach in chocolate, but that won't make it go down any easier."

-Love All Around

I really just love this quote and I thought I would share it. You can make what you want with it.

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I feel different.

You no longer bother me.

I'm just having fun.

So how about the power went out last night into this evening. We had a two hour delay, which was a huge plus. But after school at track the winds were a pain. Aside from the terrible winds, when I was sitting inside as I normally do, because both of my parents work until 4:45 so I usually bring a good book to read and listen to my iPod, but I've realized that I've become a lot more flirty with the passing-by basketball players. I really liked it too. Not like I am going to date any of them, just having some fun. ;]

I wish I could've gotten a better angle on this camera-shy flamingo. He's still a cutie, though.

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You are really dumb.

I'm glad that I'm done with you.

I'm laughing right now.

So how about my idiot ex-boyfriend got caught making a fake report card for one of his girl friends and got suspended for 3-5 days. Ahaha! It's moments like these that make me happy that son-of-a-bitch is gone.

I love this picture! Partially because it has such a fabulous story to go with it. So my mom was looking at this pin to buy for about three months before Christmas. She didn't know if my dad would like it, and she thought that is was too expensive. Well, a couple of weeks before Christmas, my dad, being the procrastinator that he is, still didn't buy my mom a gift. I told him about the pin, and we snuck out of the house to buy it. Needless to say she was very surprised on Christmas morning. 

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I thought I was done

This isn't fun anymore.

Just give me a break!

That's about track. Long story short, I have to run in a meet this weekend that I thought I wouldn't have to, which is so annoying, considering last week was suppose to be my last one. Ugh!

Bleh. Sorry about the 'me-picture.' I edited it awhile ago. Not really sure how I feel about it.

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It's decision time:

I'm done with all of this bullshit.

I'm not looking back.

Sorry about the PG-13 rated haiku. It felt great to write that, though. I wish he could read that and know that I don't like him as much as I pretend to. Anyways, so today, well not today specifically today, but awhile ago I decided that I am going to join the Peace Corps. I just want to help people. I know it will be a good experience and will help me grow to unbelievable heights. 

Here's to growing when all things are dead.

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I want a day off.

Where I don't have to worry.

About anything.

It's the weekend, which equals another lazy day. Sorry for not writing as much, I guess I am becoming a slacker. I am reading a book, though, so I am not a total loss. I'll give you a quick run through of my weekend. So yesterday I went to see MILK, which was amazing. This is going to sound cliche, but it was so inspirational how just one guy could make that much of a difference. I really loved it! Then afterwards my friend and I went over my other friend's house, where 'the group,' including the guys were there. They were all drunk so it was really fun just to mess with them. My ex-crush was being very sociable, which is completely out of his character, and I'd have to say that it was quite amusing. He kind of sounded like me when I was drunk: telling people that I wasn't drunk and saying that booze is bad for you, but then turing around and taking another sip of what I was drinking. I would have to say that I like him better when he was drunk, which is actually a terrible thought. It was a very interesting night. Surprisingly enough, though, it wasn't really awkward between me and my ex-crush, which is always a good thing. I would definitely rather be friends though. I don't think I am ready to give up my independence just yet. He isn't that great looking either, so maybe we'll be friends for awhile. Anyways, on top of everything, I was later told that these other two guys just randomly rolled a blunt on my friends table and that my friend and her boyfriend had anal sex in my friend's parent's room. I am definitely living the typical teenager's life.

This was taken last spring in Florida, where I didn't have to worry about anything. I miss that feeling.

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The sun is shining,

But the sun is misleading.

Why is it so cold?

There really isn't much to say today. I just want to curl up in my bed and read the day away.

I took this sometime last year in the spring. I really love how bright the sky looks against the clouds and tree.

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I feel so hopeless.

I really don't know what to think.

Just leave me alone.

I know, this haiku is so lame. For some reason I've been lacking inspiration lately. I'm just so tired/confused/scared. 

This is a picture from summer. I miss it so much!

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I am so tired.

Everything I do is wrong.

I just need some sleep.

No picture today. Not much of anything today. I have three tests and a gigantic presentation tomorrow, not to mention a six hour track meet.

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I really don't care 

That you think I'm different.

I love being me.

I love not following the trends. I love laughing for no reason, because I never used to before. I love it when all of the information comes together and clicks. I love it when I wake up to the sun shining, and a breeze coming through my open window. I love it when I look effortlessly beautiful, even if it is only once every year. I love it when I am in such good shape that I am not afraid to run a hard work out. I love it when I don't miss him, and when I see his face, I am not affected. I love it when I find and amazing shirt on sale, and everyone asks me where I got it from. I love the feeling I get after accomplishing something difficult. I love talking to my best friend about my problems and emotions because I know she cares.

Nothing quite like a cup of hot chocolate on a chilly afternoon. I went for the more sullen look today. Just switching it up.

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I feel so happy

I really hope that it lasts.

Say goodbye to pain.

Even though I am sick, having issues getting rid of a boy, and have a lot of tests to study for, I am still smiling. And I'd have to say that this happiness is absolute bliss. 

This is my puppy Jack. (He isn't really a puppy, he is about six years old.)

"I wish the thing I loved most didn't terrify me."

That pretty much sums of the way I've been feeling lately, which really sucks. I love being happy, but I feel like I shouldn't be, and something bad will happen. Why can't you stay with me, happiness? We can sit by the fire and drink hot chocolate. Or we can go out and sled ride in the snow. I will do anything for you to stay with me.

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I am so tired

Of playing all of these games

It just hurts too much.

Bleh. Today was such a terrible day. I have so much to do, and I'm sick. Not a good combination. I just want to light candles by my bed and fall asleep to some slow jazz. 

These nice little candles were given to me by my senior buddy at band camp freshman year.

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Safety and comfort;

My bed is the place to be.

Why must I leave it?

This morning was one of those mornings where you wake up and beg for five more minutes of sleep because you know you have so much to do. I have a lot of homework I still need to finish up, and I'm still in a mental state of confusion over a boy. I will see him for the third time this weekend because it is Super Bowl Sunday (Go Steelers!!!).

This was ice on my window. Just goes to show you how cold it really is in Pittsburgh.

My Dream House

I want a Victorian house with a wrap around porch. It would be surrounded by a field of wildflowers in the country. In my bedroom there would be a window seat so I can watch the rain tap the glass as I read a good book and drank hot chocolate. My bedroom would be the only room in the entire house to have carpeting. The bed will be so large that three of my kids could fit between my husband and I, and we would still be able to sleep comfortably.

 In one of the bathrooms there would be a white bathtub with the lions feet. And I would always have my cupboards stocked with bubble bath, so anyone could take a relaxing bath when they wanted to. The  bathrooms would remind you of a day at the beach: shells would be in glass jars and the main colors would be a sandy brown and a pale blue.

I want bookshelves lining the walls, surrounding my living room of wooden furniture.  There would be a giant stone fireplace with a mantel so I could put pictures of my kids on it. Of course, there would be windows all through out the house, so I would never have to turn on the lights in the summer. At night, I would just use candles.